One year ago

It's quite insane to look back and think about what my life was like a year ago.  So, let's do it!  Yay!

I had lost my job a month before.  My first big girl job out of college.  I was devastated.

Matt had stopped talking to me (temporarily *intense eye roll*).

I was living with my parents.

I was pretty depressed.  Not like I would have been, if I were younger.  But I was just like, wtf is this complete shit??  So I just kind of rode it out for awhile.  I drank a lot.  I was job hunting like crazy, but I was just kind of...numb.  It's so weird to think back.

I decided I needed to quit that shit quick when one morning I woke up in a 21 year old kid's bed (not that I'm old...but jeez) on like a....Wednesday morning or something.  And I was like, holyyyy shit.  I should really reevaluate.  I said that to myself about three more times before I ACTUALLY reevaluated.  For the record, I did not have sex with that 21 year old.  BUT STILL.

Anyway, I got a job at the beginning of Oct.  Since then everything has changed really.

It's weird...I mean.  Reflecting on things.  Life was "bad".  But it could have been so much worse.  It could STILL be worse.  And I know that.  So I'm grateful.

The past year has been a huge growing experience. I'm a lot more comfortable being by myself.

Moving was the hardest thing I've done. I'll chronicle that when I feel more comfortable. But the way the events in my life have played out over the past year + has brought me to where I am now. I'm still adjusting. And I don't want to cry lol. So I'll detail that in a few weeks.

I will however say that I went home last weekend and I feel better. But I still don't know what I'm doing. I wonder if I ever will.