So yeah, having sex with Matt. It was like, whatever. I mean, I am comfortable with him and know he's not sleeping around and I don't want to sleep around and sometimes you just have to have sex. I thought that would be the end of it.
Well on Wednesday he text me again. Wanted me to come over, blah blah. Then I find out he's at Adam's, and I'm like WTF NO! Then he got mad b/c he didn't know Adam liked me and of course my big mouth told him. Oops. BUT I didn't go there. Or to his house when he invited me. And then he was saying really crazy sexual things to me, which is SO unlike him.
SO Friday comes around and I creeped and knew he was going out of town this weekend so I didn't expect to hear from him. But he did text me and wanted me to come over. And bugged me for awhile. I even told him I couldn't have sex because I was on my period and he said that was fine. So I went there.
I stayed until like, 3 in the morning. He wouldn't let me leave, he was being clingy. It's SO WEIRD to me. The whole situation is weird. That's why I think I'm missing something.
And now, I'm obsessing. AGAIN.
He was tweeting this 19 y/o girl and I text him and basically yelled at him. I don't even know WHY. Like, we're not together, at all! I can't believe I did that, but I was just so pissed. He called me and I kept ignoring it. Then I asked him what the hell and he said "love you" and I said "Fuck yourself Matt. You really know how you want to stay unhappy in life". He text me this morning at 745 and said "ohhh fuck", then again at 845 and said "drugs" then AGAIN at 145 and said "and I apologize. I slept with a dude on the couch"...
I just text him back a little bit ago and I asked what he is apologizing for and he hasn't responded. It's just so weird. What is he apologizing for? If he was on drugs...idk what drugs...whatever. I mean, he deleted ALL of his tweets from last night.
Weird he just responded and said "for being a dumb stupid idiot". Jesus. Idk. I'm talking to three other guys and I'm hung up on this dumbfuck that's excuse is "drugs". I have a headache from thinking about it.
So my whole point is, I'm missing something. No sane, self respecting person puts themselves in this situation. And not only am I in the situation, I seem to be firmly planted. Any time I feel like I'm getting over him, something happens. He talks to me, I see him somewhere, a song he sent me comes on, someone asks me about him, etc. It's tiring.
When I was at his house the other day I told him I wasn't going to talk to him exclusively. Then he got all pissy about Adam and made me promise I wouldn't hook up with him, and I was like, oook done because I'm not even attracted to Adam.
Talking about this is making me extremely tired. Speaking of tired, I haven't been sleeping well at allll lately. It's driving me nuts.
On a side note, I'm going out with Korey tonight. But at like, 11. When he's done with the local show shit. Soooo maybe I can actually talk to him like a normal human being instead of blackout drunk. We shall see.
Well on Wednesday he text me again. Wanted me to come over, blah blah. Then I find out he's at Adam's, and I'm like WTF NO! Then he got mad b/c he didn't know Adam liked me and of course my big mouth told him. Oops. BUT I didn't go there. Or to his house when he invited me. And then he was saying really crazy sexual things to me, which is SO unlike him.
SO Friday comes around and I creeped and knew he was going out of town this weekend so I didn't expect to hear from him. But he did text me and wanted me to come over. And bugged me for awhile. I even told him I couldn't have sex because I was on my period and he said that was fine. So I went there.
I stayed until like, 3 in the morning. He wouldn't let me leave, he was being clingy. It's SO WEIRD to me. The whole situation is weird. That's why I think I'm missing something.
And now, I'm obsessing. AGAIN.
He was tweeting this 19 y/o girl and I text him and basically yelled at him. I don't even know WHY. Like, we're not together, at all! I can't believe I did that, but I was just so pissed. He called me and I kept ignoring it. Then I asked him what the hell and he said "love you" and I said "Fuck yourself Matt. You really know how you want to stay unhappy in life". He text me this morning at 745 and said "ohhh fuck", then again at 845 and said "drugs" then AGAIN at 145 and said "and I apologize. I slept with a dude on the couch"...
I just text him back a little bit ago and I asked what he is apologizing for and he hasn't responded. It's just so weird. What is he apologizing for? If he was on drugs...idk what drugs...whatever. I mean, he deleted ALL of his tweets from last night.
Weird he just responded and said "for being a dumb stupid idiot". Jesus. Idk. I'm talking to three other guys and I'm hung up on this dumbfuck that's excuse is "drugs". I have a headache from thinking about it.
So my whole point is, I'm missing something. No sane, self respecting person puts themselves in this situation. And not only am I in the situation, I seem to be firmly planted. Any time I feel like I'm getting over him, something happens. He talks to me, I see him somewhere, a song he sent me comes on, someone asks me about him, etc. It's tiring.
When I was at his house the other day I told him I wasn't going to talk to him exclusively. Then he got all pissy about Adam and made me promise I wouldn't hook up with him, and I was like, oook done because I'm not even attracted to Adam.
Talking about this is making me extremely tired. Speaking of tired, I haven't been sleeping well at allll lately. It's driving me nuts.
On a side note, I'm going out with Korey tonight. But at like, 11. When he's done with the local show shit. Soooo maybe I can actually talk to him like a normal human being instead of blackout drunk. We shall see.
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