I wrote this from my phone, I felt it was important

I think I just learned a spiritual lesson. 

The quote, "People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime" popped into my head. I've had somewhat obsessive thoughts about Korey for some reason lately. Well, I mean, we just stopped talking and naturally I saw him at Red Bar last night while I was with Matt. I felt really negatively toward him, even though Shaila said she felt he was empty (and I kind of sensed that too. Empty or shut out) and pointed out that I clearly care for Matt very much, I still felt fooled and hurt. 

Upon reading the quote, and a short story (which I'll post quickly): 

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a

godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .

Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the

person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

1999-2011 Yuni Words of Wisdom 

http://www.yuni.com/library/docs/631.html

After reading that, all I could think was that Korey came into my life when Matt wasn't talking to me. I cared about Matt way more than I thought and was more hurt than I thought. Korey was there to occupy my time/thoughts, even though Matt still invaded my brain. Matt started talking to me again and I kept putting him off bc of what he put me through. But again, just like in the beginning, his persistence got to me. I was still talking to Korey until about a week ago. And I did like him and care about him. I just don't have the same feelings for him that I do for Matt. I have feelings for Matt that I (for once in my life) have no words for and cannot explain. 

Matt may also be for a reason, but I have yet to figure that out.  I hate to be a stupid girl and say I hop it's not just for a reason, because I don't really want to him to leave my life, even when he actually moves.  But I guess I'll have to see.

I'm not sure what else to say because I'm still trying to figure it out. I probably never will though. And I'm ok w that. 

I will say Matt and I don't communicate verbally very much. I honestly feel like we don't have to and can express how we feel through our actions to each other. It is so bizarre to me. 

And now that I feel like a dumb twat, that is all.