internal thoughts

Reminder to self: Am drunk

Man.  What am I really thinking? 

At this point, I kind of feel like I'm going about things somewhat backward.  I had so many conditions and high expectations and I feel like I'm abandoning them so I'm not alone.  Again.

..........

Is this my lesson?  

It is.

Shit shit shit.  

I cannot fail again.

I thought it, Annie said it, Jake said it.  I said it, more than once, actually.

I have to learn the lesson, I can't take repeating it again.