Dreams

I should really keep a dream diary.  I've always had very vivid and detailed dreams and can almost always recalled everything.  I also usually am very aware that I am dreaming and can lucid dream, but I don't like controlling dreams because it's more fun to not, don't you think?

Either way, I have been having some interesting dreams lately.  I'm not one to really buy into dream interpretations, dreams are relative to your personal experiences.  However, I feel that many generic dream themes can have an umbrella meaning.  Such as dreams about teeth, snakes or being nude.  Those are common themes of dreams that are pretty universal, both in having dreams involving those things and in their meaning.  Not always though.

Lately, several of my dreams have taken place in malls.  I thought that was strange, so I looked it up.  Dreams moods website said:

To dream that you are at the mall represents your attempts in making a favorable impression on someone. You are trying to  establish your identity and sense of self. The choices you make in life will mold who you are as a person. The mall is also symbolic of materialism and the need to keep up with the trends, fads, and/or the latest technology. Consider the type and name of stores that you see in your dreams. 

I found it to be rather interesting because I am trying to establish my sense of self.  So, bingo on that interpretation.  Strange, huh?  Also, I know it's not about keeping up with trends for me.  I know this because, I could give a fuck less about trends and don't recall seeing any stores, I am always in the main mall area. 


Last night I had a dream that Matt proposed to me.  How horrifying.  In the dream, I said yes.  And then freaked out because we haven't been seeing each other for very long (and we're not even actually together!), but I went along with it anyway because I decided that I loved him.  This is way more disturbing to me than being in a mall.  A mall dream would have been great, because now, I can't get this out of my head. 

So I looked up this interpretation. The same website said:

To dream that you are being proposed to indicates that you are merging a previously unknown aspect of yourself.  More directly, the dream may mean that you are thinking about  marriage or some serious long-term commitment/project/situation. Are you thinking about proposing to someone? Your reaction to the proposal indicates your true feelings about marriage or commitment. 

Well fancy that.  Merging a previously unknown aspect of myself?  Like.....what?  I guess I have to figure that out :-) I can assure you that I am not thinking about marriage or proposing to anyone, though.  There were other interpretations on different websites...I didn't like them.  So I'm going to ignore them.  That'll make it go away, right?

I dislike that my subconscious is picking up on my feelings for Matt.  Being drunk and drugged up saying things is a different story, I feel.  It is easier to pass off.  The fact that this dream thing is bothering me makes it even worse.  I have weird dreams all the time.  Why I am still thinking about this one?  My uncomfortableness about the whole thing makes me even more uncomfortable. 

I should explore why this makes me uncomfortable.  I know a big part of it is because this is not what I wanted.  Yet it is coming too easily.  It's my belief that when things come easy, you go with it because it's part of your proposed life path.  But I don't know how he really feels or what he really wants. 

Hm.  Just got on Twitter and one of the spiritual guidance accounts I follow updated "The less we think, the more we truly see".  Again, I need to let it go and just go with the flow.  I like that every time I get off track in my journey something or someone gets me back on track.  It's relieving and refreshing.  So I'll leave this for now.

On another note, today is national hug day.  Yuck.  That is a personal thing that I definitely need to explore more.  I think I'm going to have a good meditation later today.  It's a good day for that, with the rain and such :-)

Namaste beebs!