Meditating on the Heart

I probably shouldn't be writing/publishing this while drinking.  But I am.  Let me apologize now if it makes no sense or is grammatically horrid.  

As I've mentioned before, I've been reading Chopra's The Path to Love.  It's eye-opening and mind-expanding.  I love it.  In one chapter he talks about how to meditate on your heart.  This kind of meditation is different than traditional meditation in that you are focusing on your heart and asking it to speak to you, whereas in traditional meditation you are clearing your mind and thinking/expecting nothing.

Chopra talks about how when you meditate on your heart, you focus, basically, on your heart chakra and it's ability to flow energy through your body.  When you are relaxed, you ask for it to speak to you.  He describes how a flood of emotions may envelope you, you may become physically uncomfortable or nothing at all could happen.  He says these things are normal and to continue unless you are under intense, abnormal physical pain.  

So today, instead of doing traditional meditation, I meditated on my heart.  To be honest, I didn't expect much.  I am not very good at meditating.  It's hard for me to be silent and clear my mind.  I think this was easier because I had something to focus on; my heart.

 I let my mind wander through many emotions.  I can't say all were sad, but all invoked sadness, because they were obviously memories and not the present.  We all become at least a little attached to our past and memories.  Many of them brought tears to my eyes, but nothing over powering.

About half way through, I had an emotion hit me like I have never had in my life.  Chopra mentions that when you meditate on the heart, sometimes repressed memories are surfaced.  I would say that today, I scratched the surface of a repressed memory.  

I can't go into a lot of detail right now because it's still very fresh and very painful.  I didn't even tell Ashley about it because it's very upsetting to me.  I do know that Chopra said that as painful as it is, it is cleansing your heart and helping you to heal from the pain from the experience.  So, for that reason, I am thankful for the memory.

I will continue to do this type of meditation, as I feel it is important to my personal growth.  I spread the word through my enlightened Facebook group, and I hope that they see its importance.  If you are reading this, I hope you see it too.  

To be whole, you must cleanse your soul <3