Monday, Monday

I'm a big fan of font.  There are not many font options on here. This is quite disappointing to me. 

With that being said, today is Monday.  There is some, sick, sadistic person in my office who writes chirpy little "Happy Monday (or Tues, etc)" quotes on our chalkboard by the coffee pot.  It annoys me to no end.  I would like to find out who this person is, but I really like everyone I work with and would like to keep it that way.

That kind of makes me sound like I hate my job, but that's completely untrue.  I love my job.  But that doesn't mean I love it more than a nice, long weekend. 

Moving on...
Since Chris and I broke up, I've been on a personal mission of self-discovery.  It occurred to me that I had been living my life with Chris in mind with every decision I made.  I'm not saying it's necessarily bad, I am a very companion-oriented person, but it was becoming burdensome in my life.  To the extent of: I'm making all my decisions with you in mind, while you are making no life decisions what-so-ever.  I'm not into one-sidedness.  I give, you give. Anyway, I'm done with this topic b/c I could literally write a novel on it, and prefer not to.  Maybe some other time when I'm less emotionally charged by it.

Onward with my self-discovery speech.  I have done really well over the past several months.  I have discovered that I have a problem with self-love.  Which is really common and almost the norm. But my problem is more like...some days I think I'm amazing and some days the self-hate is debilitating.  While this can be the normal ebb and flow of human emotion, mine ups and downs were very extreme.  To the point where it was having a profound effect on my life.  So I am working on that, and I am starting to feel a lot better, actually.

Don't get me wrong, it is a daily struggle.  Especially when my anxiety gets the best of me.  I am also working on controlling that, without the aid of prescription medication.  It is going decently well.

I read an article...ok no a blog I guess, today.  I'll post it in here.  But, it's really funny, you know.  Getting into all this new age spiritualism (which sounds so insanely lame and douchey to me, it's astounding), it has really opened my eyes, heart and mind to what I was shutting out.  Which was nearly everything.  I have done more in the past two months of my life than I have in probably my whole life.  Good or bad, it's an experience, right?

Both the article that I read, and a status from Spirit Science really resonated with me today.  It made one more impact on me about the importance of vibrational frequencies, and how we attract to us the vibrations in which we put out.  Even the thoughts we put out (because thoughts are energy), we attract that sort of vibration to come back to us.  It really makes you want to change the way you think into positive energy.

Here is the blog/article:  http://www.planetofsuccess.com/blog/2011/listen-to-your-heart/

My best, out-of-state friend, Errity, posted it in our weird, little Facebook group :-)
I only personally know about 5 people in the group.  Eritty and I, by far, post the most in the group.  A few comment.  Of the few that comment (besides Errity) I don't personally know any of them.  But I love the shit out of them, and would do more for them than I would many people that I do personally know.

So that's my thoughts on today :-)