Stream of consciousness

Being a former English major (and lit nerd), we would occasionally talk about "stream of consciousness" writing.  Though this writing makes little sense to the reader, since it's a type of interior monologue and follows the writers thoughts, I have always really liked it.  Mainly because so many English professors think they're so smart and know exactly what the writer was talking about, when in reality, they are full of shit.  That always annoyed me.  With stream of consciousness writing, you write with your emotions. 

I was always horrible at this kind of writing, and I would imagine that I still am.  I am not very comfortable with my emotions, controlling them, hiding them, or really understanding them.  So in order for me to write them, and let other's read it, it's quite the stretch for me.  I should work on that.

Changing topics, I still haven't heard anything about Little Rock.  This is driving me absolutely crazy.  I like to plan shit out and know what's going on.  This has to be another test for me.  Who would be ok with this situation though, really? 

Between that and Matt, I think I'm losing my mind.

Actually, you know what, I'm not really.  I mean, yeah, it's bugging me and is definitely a stressor.  But I think I'm handling it pretty well.  Go with the flow, right?

That's not to say it's not bugging the FUCK out of me. Because it is. 

WHAT DO YOU PEOPLE WANT FROM ME?!?!?!!!