Self Love

"You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection" -Buddha

I have a problem with self love.  It is something I have been working on over the past few months.  I think it's actually getting slightly better, but it's hard to tell.  I can say my extremes are a little less extreme. 

I emailed a lady who is a "spiritual catalyst" a few months back.  Her name is Teal Scott.  I love her.  She told me that I have a problem with self love and to fix it, I need to answer every question in my life after asking "What would someone who loved themselves do"?  And then whatever thought is the 1st thought that pops into my head, go with that answer.  That seems pretty flawed to me, only because I think my thoughts are fucked up.  But I think it's supposed to teach me to make decisions on what I really want, and base these decisions on my heart, not my brain.

(Completely unrelated side note: I love being told I'm smart.  Someone just told me I was smart.  Ok, that's not unrelated, I AM smart and I love that about myself :-)  )

So, with these things being said, I am going to start a list of things I love about myself.  Hopefully this will make me more self aware and appreciative of myself.  We'll start with the previous interruption:

I love that I am smart
I love that I am self aware, or at least always trying to become more self aware
I love that I have grown to be better person than I was in high school and even in college
I love that even though I have grown as a person, I try to continue my personal growth
I love that I read a lot and am always willing to learn
I love that I am open minded
I love that I am finally doing things for myself and not for anyone else
I love that I am good at my job
I love that I am compassionate and have rediscovered this compassion in myself
I love that I am learning to be patient (I just said this to someone else, and I do love it, but then I followed up with "But it's taking forever" hahaa...which is true, but clearly also necessary)
I love that I am learning and understanding that the universe does provide you with what you need.
This is really weird, BUT I love that even though I am a girl, I can definitely embrace by guy-side.  I have a terrible mouth, and I don't care :-)
I love that even though I may not fully love myself, I stick by my decisions, move on & learn from my mistakes
I love that even though I am weird, I really, really like my weirdness
I love that I am open to making new friends everywhere I go
I love that I talk a lot
I love that people like to be around me
I love that I am open and honest
I love that I can admit when I'm wrong

That's a pretty good list really.  I am kind of impressed with myself.